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Tuesday, June 26, 2012

With a heavy heart...

 It's with a heavy heart that I tell you that my best friend back in WA Chelsea passed away this morning. 

I've been debating whether or not I wanted to write anything about this, but it seems like such a huge event in my life that I don't think I want to let it go unsaid. 

Chels was diagnosed with colon cancer in the summer of 2010 and proceeded to kick its ass for a year and a half. Usually, chemotherapy is done in rounds because the human body can't handle it, but Chelsea was a rock and was able to withstand a full year and a half. She was doing great until a congenital cyst problem reared its ugly head due to a weakened immune system, which ultimately contributed to her early passing. 


This woman was the glory of God that flew down to comfort me when Chris passed. She was the one who I celebrate every Halloween with (whether I'm in WA or not). I don't know how to accurately explain my relationship with Chelsea, so I looked up our text messages [I have texts from her dated back to April 2011, which is when I got my iPhone. I should go check my old Blackberry...]: At least every other text message has an exclamation point. And a lot of cuss words. And anytime I said something that would make her roll her eyes, she'd say "ohhh lordyy!"


She's the woman who introduced me to the deliciousness of Long Island Ice Teas, the hilarity of sex stores, the dangerousness of Roman candles, the grace of compassion, the security of cuddling with your best friend, the love of country music, the necessity of a weekly happy hour, and the joy of life--and so much more.


To my best friend since 8th grade: 


I'm so grateful to have known your heart. 

My second-to-last text message I ever received from you was a piece of advice regarding life, and says the following: "You will know what to do. Just take it day by day, minute by minute. Let the pieces fall where they may. Either way, just know I love you and I'm here for you in whatever you may need." Rest in peace, wise friend. Know that you're always with me, now and forever. 

48 comments:

ArmyWifeLiz said...

Brought tears to my eyes... I love you, Sar!

Whitney said...

Sar, I'm so sorry. I can't even fathom what it's like to lose a friend, just know I'm here for you if you need to talk. <3

Suze said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. How difficult. Deep sympathy and condolences to you.

Sarah said...

So sorry for your loss, Sarah. I love your ability to stay positive and focus on the good times. Always keep that with you.

Jen said...

You post made me tear up. I'm so sorry to hear you lost such a dear friend. She sounds like fantastic gal. She will be with you everyday in spirit!

anna.montana said...

My heart goes out to you... You are such a strong person! Thank you for sharing.

Syndal said...

aw Sar-I am so, so, so sorry to read this. I'm so glad you had such a great (& long) friendship with Chelsea and it seems like it was such a special relationship. How incredibly sad to lose someone you're so close to in this way. hugs girl..thinking of you & keeping you and Chelsea's family in my prayers tonight.

Courtney Carlton said...

:(

This is a beautiful post. Loved all of the pictures of you guys... and I know this is only a very small handful of them. She's loved by so many and will be definitely missed, but will continue to inspire people by the strong fight she put up.

Love you, S.

Courtney Carlton said...

My comment posted three times. I'm not sure why. LOVE YOU.

KJ said...

I stop in and read your blog from time to time, and I'm so incredibly sorry to hear this. What a wise and brave friend you have. Big hugs & prayers to you and yours as you go through this difficult time.

Amber said...

Stopping over from Syndal's blog, and I am so incredibly sorry to read of your friend's passing. My thoughts and prayers to you all!

Meghan @ More from Meg said...

I'm so sorry Sar!!! Thinking of you!!

Lauren said...

I'm so happy you wrote it. She was such a wonderful human being. We can all learn SO much from her attitude and how she approached the last two years. She'll always be with us. Love you, Sar.

Makin Memories Of Us said...

So sorry to hear this. May she rest in peace. Prayers going out to you all.

Mama Bear said...

Well said. Love you much.

Allison said...

Oh Sar I'm so sorry for your loss. That last text message is a treasure. Thinking of you girl!

Abbey said...

I'm so sorry to hear this. It sounds like she was an amazing, amazing person. I'm sure many will miss her. Thinking of you and her family.

Kate said...

I'm so so so sorry! I can't imagine what you must be feeling. Just know that I'm keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

Victoria said...

oh no, i have tears in my eyes and i didn't even know this wonderfully beautiful friend. i am so sorry you lost your best friend :(

keeping you and her family in my thoughts/prayers!

Betty said...

So sorry to hear this. You both are in my prayers!

Tiffany said...

So sorry for your loss :( Cancer sucks! You're in my thoughts and prayers.

Sarah said...

I'm always here for you - you know that! What a beautiful post & such a wonderful way to celebrate her life! If she was anything like you, then she was an overwhelmingly amazing person. I am so glad that you had a chance to know her and that you two have such beautiful memories.

Holly said...

Oh Sar, I actually am tearing up while reading this. I am so sorry for your loss. No one should have to deal with this kind of hurt and pain. It's stories like this that are what motivate me to fight and kick cancer's ass at work--this shouldn't happen. It's not fair. If you need to talk, vent, yell, complain, laugh, reminisce, cry, whatever...let me know.

You and your friends and all of Chelsea's family and friends are in my prayers. xoxo

Kayla Danelle said...

Oh sweet friend, I'm so so sorry for the loss of your beautiful friend. I can't imagine the pain you must be feeling right now. thanks for letting all of us know so that you can be near and dear to our hearts and prayers. Hugs, K

Rachel said...

I am so sorry for your loss...my heart just aches for you. I can't even imagine the pain you are feeling right now...sending prayers and hugs your way, sweet girl!

Jordan said...

hugs, hugs, hugs

Claire said...

I am so sorry about your loss. You had a wonderful friendship with such a great friend. You were both very lucky. I'm sure she is watching over you now, in heaven.

Joslin said...

What a beautiful friendship! I'm sending hugs and lots of prayers for you and her family.

Hannah J said...

Hey lovely lady. I am so sorry for your lose. I have no idea what you're going through - I nearly lost my best friend from a dodge appendectomy when we were at University but she got better.

Sending you huge hugs - I know I'm in the UK but if I can do anything to help you at all just let me know :)

Jodi said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I can't believe you have lost 2 young people so close to you. Thank you for sharing about her so that we can remember her and support you. Thinking of you.

Vanessa said...

What a beautiful post and a beautiful friendship. My heart goes out to you.

Colette said...

Very sorry to hear about your loss. Lots of love and strength to you.

Tamara said...

So sorry to hear about your loss, love. I know you have plenty of great support around you, but I'm in the building if you ever need me.

Lauren R. said...

I am so sorry to hear that, Sarah. You're in my prayers constantly this week.

Adrienne said...

I'm so, so sorry to hear this. Prayers going out to you and her family and friends this week. <3

Danielle said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You will be in my prayers!

Danielle
http://bellaella2121.blogspot.com/

Rachel said...

Thinking of you through this difficult time!

MandeeFoFandee said...

oh Sar, I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you can find peace in this difficult time. :(

meghan said...

Sar, I'm so so sorry. I just don't even know what to say. I'll be thinking about you. And that text message says so much. How wonderful that you will always have it. Take a picture of it and save it so that you'll have it after that phone.

Little Lady @Sunshine&amp;Shadows said...

*hugs* I'm so sorry.

Katie said...

Oh this makes my heart heart for you. Thinking of you lady. Thoughts to her family as well.

Bri Buzali said...

Sar, I'm so so sorry for your loss. I can't even begin to imagine the pain and the hurt that you're going through, but it should bring you at least a little peace to know that she is no longer in pain. I'm here if you need anything!

Big Hug!
Bri

Meredith said...

I'm so sorry Sar. There are no words, and I'll be thinking of you.

Ashley said...

I just read this post and got chills and then came the tears. I am SO SORRY that you are having to go through this. I can't even imagine and I'm not going to pretend like I know how you feel. Just know that she would be proud of you for posting and sharing her legacy with us. I am praying for you and her family and friends. Love her last bit of advice- definitely something to save and look back to when you have a hard time! Always remember her just like that! Thinking of you girl!

Tricia said...

I can't even imagine what you're going through right now, losing a close friend so early on in both her and your life. I'm very sorry.
You and her family are in my thoughts and prayers.
It sounds like her friendship was important to you and that is what will carry on. All of those good things you two had together will now get to live on through your memories. It sounds like you guys made some good ones.

E said...

Oh lady, I'm so sorry for your loss. It's never easy to lose anyone, let alone someone so young. I hope you can always cherish those moments and times you shared together. Even crazy texts!
My thoughts are with you.
E

Nikki said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. She sounds like an amazing friend, and that text message with advice, well that is one to save. My condolences

Kristine said...

:( I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. Stay strong, girly... loving you!